Please.

Please Be Kind;

I am tired both mentally and physically. I was wondering how today is a good night, when actually to face the truth, it isn’t a good day after all.

The scene was crazy, the winds weren’t helping at all and the heat was increasingly killing. It was awful. A smile on my face helped its way in making me think it will be better when it is not even close to being better. It isn’t rest that I needed. It is just good times, which I doubt to be soon. When things like this happen, I feel how my world is ending with a great shitty drama. It wasn’t good at all to see such things.

It happened so fast that everything is so blurred. Just like when you drink a bottle of water when you are so thirsty all the way. You don’t know how much you drank after that? It is fast isn’t it?

I say friends come and go. Sometimes it isn’t their decision to drift apart.

Sometimes it is ours. We decide – I decide. All the way through something taught me a lesson to actually prove to myself how much I really want to go. I went far and yet looking at where I was standing, I was back in the box. I don’t want to be even close to the box. It was so damn unlucky. It was awful to see scenes which disturb your head. Final words to be said but it ended to be more than that. Lucky - thought of minds ended with tiredness so thus it ended just like that.

Everything happened so fast yet it won’t go away from your head so easy. Even the finest words of all won’t make you feel good in my state right now. The only solution is to let the brain solve it on its own.

Sometimes yes we need to have these kinds of things. It is good in a way that they might teach us a lesson. What would it matter? Why does friendship matters? In a way to make people go sensitive if I won’t hangout anymore, or if I never text? Or if I go out with someone my friends don’t like? Does it matter now? Or does it matter for your future? I dare say no.

When some people are just there for you, look at the stars and pray, “Dear god, you gave me something good after you let something bad to me to happen. I shall thank you for that.”

For the fearful moments I received, I jumped to a conclusion that I am now mindless and tired, and not to mention, I have nothing to say. I have a null in my head. I have a big egg in my head. How am I supposed to know? I don’t know, I don’t care, and I don’t want to know about anything anymore.

Whatever comes your way, don’t be like me, coming in unprepared. But I will do better next time though, because it will change one way or another.

:)

XX

MY BESTPLENG IS A LUJER SEE HOW WE ARE!

:)

Used to be.

I used to be..

your friend.
your smiling face.

And now..

I am..

just a piece of memory. :)

I just want to tell you here how much I missed you. I still do. Tonight I went to the beach, and I finally thought of you after so long. I spent my times without you, making you nowhere in my mind. But always know that you'll always be there not as my memory, but something I will cherish all my life. You will always be the one who's making me be who I am now.

You were my smile.
You were my diary.
You were my goodnight sleep.
You were ..

The person I fell for, without you knowing. :')

If you're reading this, I would like to say I am over you, but it doesn't mean that I can't miss talking to you, right? You'll always be my friend, now and for always. Forever seems so quick to say, so I wouldn't want to say that now.

I gave you this song, and I wish for you to sing it with me now. :)



okay yes I put it in Blue.

I picked blue cause it is very warm and light just like the smile on my face now. Just like you, and just like how I am smiling now. It is not saying I like you, but it is just saying, how I miss talking to you as your friend. I hope to keep up with you back one day.

I'll be right here, I won't wait, cause I know that I am not the one you're missing. So let me be the one to let this out as it would make a difference in my day;

Dear Diary,

I thought of someone today. I miss it.

:)

Thank you for being there for me,

Uz. :)

This is from me, Nabeelah Khalid Mohaimin :)

Nx

This one is what I found on my imeems. :) I hope people love it too like I do. It is simple and relaxing. :):)

Nx

blue.

Pretty much the same.

Magical Power;

A friend asked me something last night; of all sorts of power, which one you want to have?

It took me a while to answer. Finally I had my answer to that.

“All I ever want is the power that never can be existed in this world. You can be invisible by the power of science, you can read mind with the power of science as well – it existed a long time ago; only this one power that no one in this world can create for any ordinary person like me – The power of having to give Happiness.”

I’ve gained weight. It is awful. However I am taking it slowly to trim back since I am planning to start swimming back. I will be going to the gym during fasting time. I hope by that time, I’d drive there alone.

I fell asleep again just now after washing up. I had one bad dream.

You know this one phrase ‘One went away, decide on the ten which will come.” I bet everyone is familiar with that. A person will always feel that way if someone goes away from them. I am no exception to agree on that. My part here is that I am not the one who’s saying it; I am the one who went away.

I’ve been busy nowadays since University started. It is more than tiring; mentally and physically. Yet, it is one of the most awesome parts of my life. I couldn’t say it is dull, because these days, I felt so tired yet so energetic. I met new friends.
I talked to a rugby mate yesterday. She is a very good friend of mine. I thank god to have her as my team mate. He name is Jor. She is nice in every way and I wouldn’t do anything to make her mad because it is just the thing that I don’t want to do. We had a very long conversation before waiting our turn to jog. We sat on the bench, talking about life. It was fun.

One thing I understand from University life; independence. If you say it is easy, then you’re wrong. It is something we need to go through and hold on to for always. As you grow older, it is something you can’t avoid. Like me; I have the responsibility of a daughter, a student, a monitor, a driver and responsibility to myself.
I have 4 pending essays to write. Every each one of them needs no reference to a book; it is merely dependant on my mind to think. All under philosophy thus I have to talk about it philosophically. Don’t say that it is easy because it isn’t.
“Do you think we should criticize a person itself or the theory of the person?”
“Does anything in this world happen by chance?”

“What do you think about health media happening in this world according to article from the news given?”

“Richard Dawkins is an Atheist. He made an article on religion. Is he thinking critically? Is he a good critical thinker? Refer it to the idea of Critical thinking of Russell, John Dewey, Richard Paul, Robert Ennis etc.”

Hard work is needed in this area.

I’ve been walking around the University here and there to finish my work alone. It’s been hot outside, as you can see. The haze isn’t making my life easier. Getting in and out from the library made my temperature inconsistent thus making me ill. I am having a cold at this particular moment.

And so I think I’m doing this again for the second time. I will be starting revising as I saw my life as meaningless at times. It isn’t. I was just being ignorant.
I will be having exams until the end of this month or a week after December. Pretty shitty right? This is how it should be. Sighs!

Nx

Typical Sunday

Well to say life is boring, I can't deal with it. To say life is interesting, I might say it isn't so. To say interest is something I haven't been thinking about, is far good enough. Okay complicated much? I thought so.

okay i am having a rest from revising critical thinking and reasoning. I will certainly miss semester one, which I doubt to be very interesting. Although something proved me wrong. I think, from my point of view, UBD life is rather dull at times but when it gets interesting, it might put you in a hyper position in your day.

Exam season is going on now. Within less than a week, I will be having my first paper. This might put a call to my social life, but who cares.

I'm just living my life to the fullest. This reminds me of a conversation I had with Nis. I hope I can edit it here again cause I sure loved it back then.

I don't have any plans for this new years. I do, with Dan I think. Dudley is flying off. YOU SUCK DUDE CAUSE I'M GOING TO MISS YOU!

I've been missing a lot of people. sighs.

Hazel invited me to watch a movie with them tonight but I don't think that I can go cause I am still studying for the exams. I don't want to get just good grades, I want AWESOME ones. FOR SURE.

:)

What a lazy sunday to me.

Nx.